Emptiness

Insignificant is this life,

Numb are my feelings day to day,

To the possibility, you will not be my wife

Totally desolate come what may,

In this state, I wish not to stay,

Fill this hole in me I pray.

Sweeping changes every day they come,

Adjusting, contemplating, seeking stability has me numb.

Fill me up or turn me to chum,

Because every day I feel like scum.

Tarnished and tainted forever I feel,

Damaged and broken is what's real.

Sad and deeply repentant I am,

It's unfortunate I wasn't a better man.

Empty inside, I feel like an abyss,

Seeking your counsel during this crisis.

Angry you are this is true,

But for me, there is no living without you.

SaMmO

4-Dec-20