Give A Chance

Difficult it has been to shed this skin.

Harder still to stay on the path unknown. 

Change is necessary as you go through life, 

But here come that familiar struggle and strife. 

Despite my best efforts made,

Irrespective of bridges mended and apologies paid,

It hurts deep inside which cause anxiety and causes me to be afraid.

Will anyone come to my aid?

The most hurtful part is this,

No matter how much you try you miss. 

Blinded by the ghost of years past they are,

The new you won’t get very far. 

If those closest to you refuse to see how hard you are trying,

Why should those at a distance think anything but you are lying?

See me now for who I am trying to be,

At the very least, give me some rope or set me free.

Returning to my old self and shutting down is so easy,

But now that I try to be a better version of myself, this upsets me. 

Give me a chance is all I ask,

To sink or swim through my actions now is my task. 

To show the world that a better version of my self I am,

Or die trying because I refuse to devolve and lose the progress I’ve made. 

SaMmO

15-Nov-20